It's been almost 7 months since I last left you an entry.....

1. Me and that guy DIDN'T work out...he's an ass who doesn't know what he wants..and has a baby on the way ....wow

2. Love the apartment situation...but my roommate..I love her too but Lord knows sometimes it's hard

3. Life is full of it...so are the people in it...just full of it.

4. I'm an Advertising major now which is so much better then Journalism...creativity!

Anywho...this entry is going to be short because I'm on my way to my job, but know that since July life has been trying...then it's had it's moments where i just was LOVING everything that was going on. I'm working on me..becoming a better person....you know that whole deal. ANNNND I'm going to start writing on my xanga more. I know I've said that before and let you all down but now I'm serious...So kick back and look for updates...but honestly Xanga is just a chance for all of you to be nosey hmmm?

PeAce

Currently Listening Gangsta Grillz 15 By Project Pat, DJ Drama see related

Deja Vu'

Yeh so it's been awhile....

And yes...it's gotten better and Worse all in the same

I ended up getting into summer school..and check this my assignment is to write a 3-8pg paper about my major, why i picked it, what I plan on doing with it, and how does being an african american woman effect my decision. I gotta do that for 6 credit hours...it was actually 2 papers but he combined it into one which is love.

So for the majority of my summer I didn't work. I just got a job 2 weeks ago working at a factory making plastic cups and plates. Let me tell you...working a job like this will make you appreciate being in school. It's hot as hell in there...and I work 12hrs...7am-7pm  two days on..two days off..every other weekend I'm off.

I hate that shit.....it's had me sleepy and sore

Of course it wouldn't be a summer w/o me getting into it with one of my friends...I don't want to really go into it but know I'm tired of being "bigger person" . Or as this one dude at my school would say "be 21 about the situation". But whatever.

I have a guy friend now...but Lord know's this is trying as well. I've gotten so use to my own ways..and its hard to deal with someone else and the way they view things...put it like this...when it's good..it's great..but when it's bad...it's horrible...and we're not even together yet. He's real ......cautious..and somehow I'm finding myself to be more outgoing and willing to take the risks.

That's crazy because it's soooo not like me.

Hmm what else...I have an apartment ...i mean I'm excited...but I'm realizing that it's more expensive than I thought it would be. Hopefully my refund check will come through...I got my grandma's furniture set for my front room..my roomate took care of the kitchen..so now all i have to do is get my bed. I think I'm going to try and do the IKEA thing..but we'll see.

Right now I'm at a point where I want the summer to end! Lol I'm missing carbondale...and some of the people in it. I have freedom at home..mom's neva trips..but it's about being on my own now. I see once I graduate college I'm going to have to be out here doing me...not confined.

Hmmmm...Hopefully I still have people who read this thing...as you can see I freshened it up a lil bit....oh yeh and excuse the Project Pat playin...for some reason I've become a 3 6 Mafia fan...and no it wasn't because the won the grammy..I've been liking them since the end of last summer....

Well Xanga-er's...stay with me...read about the things going on in my life..be nosy...it's cool with me...Give me feedback..and be eazy

PeAce

Currently Listening New Beginning By SWV Use your heart see related

Ahh its been a long time and im sorry for making u wait xanga-nation.

Lets see...I slacked off...grades were the pitts...

Drama...happiness...more drama...moments of sadness...

Irritability....God I never knew I could be irritated so bad until I met him...Like em alot..but he irritates the SHIT out of me...excuse my language.

There is nothing more irritating thant a insecure man...point blank

3 C's and a freaking D made my grades for the semester...ask me what happened..cuz i have no idea.

Nope I really have no idea...so yeh I'm going back to school mainly for work but also to go help boost my gpa a lil...

Ok...I really don't feel like writing but I decided I'd give yall a peek if yall missed me

Currently Listening King By T.I. Top Back see related

I'm caught in a place of either being sad...or being really pissed off.

These past two weeks have been crazy...ups and downs..lefts and rights..and no real answer to any of the problems going on in the world.

Last night I got so mad I scared myself...things started getting hazy...got light headed...I had to get up and walk out of the speaker I was listening too.

After some fresh air..walking around the building..a couple of tears..and a bucket load of four lettered words to my friends I was half-way ok.

I have a problem with trusting people too quickly..with makin people my friends who really are'nt my friends. I'm learning that the hard way tho.

I'm the type of person that if we friends I'll stretch myself thin for you..u kno if u need a ride..maybe 5 bucks...that type of stuff...

Then it's if ur my GIRL. Those are the people I surround myself with daily..the people i'd ride or die for. The people who I'd kno give me their last if i really need it..or they'd go out their way to make sure i got it.

Last night someone mistaked themselves from being my friend...to being MY GIRL.

I'm learning to deal with my friends...my girls..and my temper.

Thats the new deal in my life now.

I need to change that anger problem tho'...one of my girls told me " I feel sorry for the person who pissed u off to a point where u want to fight".

I feel sorry for that person too

PeAce

Currently Listening Mystic Stylez By Three 6 Mafia see related

I always say I'm going to write, and I never do.

I treat xanga like it's my man on the side.

I'm sorry.

So much has gone on in my life since I've been back to school...I'm trying to get myself together. Still not focused. Still not doing as good as I should be doin in school. Still just procrastinating about a lot of things.

I think I'm fustrated with life, as cliche' as that may sound thats exactly how I feel.

Nothing has gone my way. I know I'm just suppose to put things in Gods hands, but patience is one thing he didn't bless me with.

Only thing exciting for me now is the fact that next year I'm getting an apartment...freedom from the dorm and their brand new yall...studio lights and cathedrial cellings..we have 2 full bathrooms and a eat in kitchen with brand new appliances. So yeh that..and the fact that next semester I only have classes one Mon,Wed, & Frid. from 10-3pm. So yeh thats whussup right? I do have a thursday class from 5pm-8pm but I believe I'm gonna drop it if I don't like it...

Making my schedule like that was so lazy of me.

All my courses are either history or journalism courses...that means I'm getting old yall...lol about to be a freaking JR. how time flies when your having fun huh?

Yesterday I saw someone who use to go to school here, very well known girl on campus. She graduated with a BA in English...eventho mine is going to be Journalism..we still on the same playing field. But she told me how she's working for a bank, just writing up letters for fraud and stuff like that...making 70,000 a year...now yall know thats good for someone who's only 24 and on her own..no kids..no husband..no worries.

Gave me hope that I'll get a nice paying job like that...and be able to have a nice 2 bedroom apartment near the city of chicago...or maybe even downtown chicago...hopefully right?

Ok...I'm done rambling yall...

PeAce